I know it’s not even Halloween but look in the stores and you’ll see Christmas decorations up already. When this time of year rolls around I start planning for our holiday season because there’s so much to plan and because I’m compulsive (that’s another post for another day).
For Halloween, Peanut’s school is having a party the night before – yeah! I know she’ll be going to that as we like to participate in as many school events as possible. On Halloween Peanut has early release. That means she’ll be out of school around 2.
My church is going to set up a tent in the parking lot and hand out candy. We’re right across from Peanut’s school. I’ll be there helping to set up and after I get Peanut helping give out candy.
That night we’ll either go to a friend’s house for a party, just pizza and trick-or-treating, while I get to stay home and relax, or we’ll do our trick-or-treating in our own neighborhood.
Now for Thanksgiving. Peanut has off that whole week this year. This is going to really help me out. Cooking and preparing for our big meal is a lot of work. I either don’t do it or if I do I’m a nervous wreck.
I don’t know exactly what causes my anxiety about entertaining but it’s real. I feel unable to cook properly because I mess up a lot when cooking and because my concentration is pretty much shot. Then knowing that I’ll have people to serve and wait on, even if it’s my own family doesn’t help.
I’ve changed so much in this area that it upsets me. Our home was always the place to be. We had parties at the drop of a hat. I cooked up a storm and decorated our table and home so nicely. It’s all gone now. That saddens me a great deal.
I’m really going to give Thanksgiving a try this year. I’ll start cooking days in advance. Maybe that will get me feeling more confident for Christmas.
To be continued…