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Anger Problem

Posted by Connie on Thursday, December 11th, 2008 at 11:40 pm and is filed under Chronic Illness.
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As I continue on this road of life with multiple chronic illnesses, I am learning more about myself than I may have if I wasn’t sick. The lessons at first were too difficult to face. Sometimes even now I feel like I’ve had enough learning, but the lessons continue. Most of them when things are going badly.

For example each new diagnosis, almost every flare up, and some setbacks have had me sad, depressed at times and angry. The anger is the worst. That anything can trigger me to have an outburst feeling.

Yes it’s been that bad. I recently wrote about working on my bad attitude toward my family. But this anger issue is even worse. I find myself getting frustrated easily and just blow up. Usually I’m alone when this happens. This is so unlike me and it scares me too.

So next on my list of things to work on is finding out why I am easily angered and what to do about this. I’ve been praying about this and am going to talk to someone about it if it continues to be a problem. I haven’t been feeling stressed, so I’m wondering if it is the sleeping problem I’ve been having. I hope so as I don’t like being this way at all.

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  1. I think that being a woman who has the demands of a husband and family can make one angry and quick to flare up. I used to be like that. Now I am medicated.

    comment by Karen — December 12, 2008 @ 12:34 pm
  2. I am not usually an angry person, but I have to admit that back when mom was in the hospital in Aug, in fact it was the day she got released–I actually flipped out in a CVS parking lot. Now the woman who I got ill with was being awful, but I don’t lose my temper or cuss or shout and I did all those things. I think I was so stressed out about my mom, but also physically myself, that I just lost it. I felt like an idiot right after because it was stupid to behave that way.

    I am so proud of you for your honesty and being willing to look at your behavior and work on it. That is such a big step. Most people would try to blame someone else, or the illness, but you aren’t doing that, you are looking into yourself for reasons.

    I think that dealing with the constant changes we do because of illness can set anyone off. It is hard to lead a life that seems to be one thing one minute and another the next. It is hard to get a grip on how you feel when that changes so rapidly as well.

    I know you to be a caring and kind person, so I am sure this anger is more about not being able to do things than at someone else. It is probably anger at yourself for not being able to do all you want to (especially to help others!). Try to take some time each day for YOU (I know that is hard with a husband and a young child) but it is necessary. I find when I give myself a little down time each day, I am able to control the anger a lot better because I have released the safety valve and let some pressure off of me.

    Just a thought. . .

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    comment by Maureen — December 12, 2008 @ 10:29 pm

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