I try to save money and try to save time when shopping. When I don’t feel well I love to shop online. It’s easy and painless. I don’t need to find a ride to the store and try to feel energized to look around stores for what I want. The other thing I like about shopping online is it is less work to look for a sale. I can look for promo codes, online coupons and check on comparison websites.

What are some of your favorite places to shop online? Does it help you when you’re not well to use this method of shopping?

I can’t handle getting sick now. I mean I already feel overly tired and think I might have anemia. But I don’t want to get a stomach virus now. My stomach hurts and I feel sick to my stomach. I didn’t feel well enough to eat lunch and tried to eat dinner, but it didn’t happen. There’s no need for diet pills here.

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The most upsetting part of this is that tonight is the premier of Lost. I have this whole routine for watching Lost and was ready for it tonight. It includes popcorn and now I can’t even think of smelling it, never mind eating it. So it’s going to feel like something’s wrong for sure.

Please not a stomach virus now on top of all this other crud.

I have to face facts. As much as I’d rather hide my head in the sand about this I have to accept that I am gaining too much weight. I haven’t weighed myself but I can tell because my clothes are getting too tight and I can see that bulge around my tummy.

Feeling very selfish because I have so many restrictions from being chronically ill, I want to have something in life that I can enjoy with no strings attached and it’s been food. Wrong, I know but I’ve been using food to make me happy. I love eating. When I was young, I was very thin and could eat anything and not gain weight. So I got used to that.

When I was young and was upset or anxious, I couldn’t eat. Now I eat more. I’m becoming embarrassed by my looks and need to make some major changes. I don’t wear anything that is too tight-fitting because it shows my stomach. I can’t remember the last time I wore sexy lingerie, well because.

This is the time for New Year’s Resolutions. Tons of people say they want to lose weight but for me, I have not only my self-esteem at stake I have my health at stake too. This should be the incentive I need to get on the right track of eating healthy again and doing the kind of exercise that I am able.

There is so much going on my life, a lot bad but a lot good too. For both I want to be at my best though. My Aunt who is already chronically ill had a fall at home last Sunday night. She broke her shoulder and cheek bone. My Mom, who lives with her and is the guardian of her person, has been with her at the hospital all week keeping her company. Plus the surgery and hospital stay have been nothing short of a disaster.

So I’ve been staying at the hospital too. I not only have been there for my Aunt but for my Mom too and have been trying to coordinate everything with doctors, uncaring nurses, incompetent nurses, PCA’s, and other hospital staff.

Of course seeing my Aunt in pain, confused and bruised is just terrible in itself. Add to it, that my Mom is not feeling well from worrying and that all of this happened just a few days before Christmas, it feels very stressful.

I ended up not having our traditional Christmas Eve fish dinner for the first time in my life but I had to conserve my energy. I had to stay well enough to still be able to help with my Aunt, have Christmas Day at my house and not get sick for my older daughter’s visit from Kansas.

I did the best I could. I washed my hands frequently at the hospital and stayed in my Aunt’s room only. I slept whenever I could even napping at the hospital. I prayed a lot. I vented a lot. I tried to keep things in perspective.

And you know what? I survived. I didn’t get sick, thank God. My Aunt is out of the hospital and in a Rehab Center. Christmas Day was lovely. My older daughter is here and things are going well enough.

I think I figured out why I’ve been having so many emotional issues recently, along with my unusual sleep patterns. I got a phone message on Friday from my primary doctor telling me that I had to call the office back because of my blood test results. By the time I got the message and called the office was closed.

Today I learned that my Potassium level is low again. It’s 3.3, which usually isn’t bad since 3.5 is the normal range. But, since I have chronic illnesses especially Myasthenia Gravis this can cause me problems.

It’s a long story about how it took so long to get my blood test results over to my Nephrologist (Kidney Dr.) but I didn’t hear anything by late afternoon. So I called that office. They didn’t call me back until after 5 PM. By then, as is usual for me, the MG symptoms were kicking in. But it was really bad today.

The nurse I spoke to told me to go to the ER because she could hear my slurred speech and shaky voice. I was so upset that I had my husband get on the phone and tell them that I know how to control my symptoms and that I was ready for my medication when they called. He went back and forth with them.

Finally they understood that I wasn’t going to the ER. It then took 3 more phone calls to tell me how to increase my medications and to go for more blood work on Monday. Sheesh! I do feel very fatigued, am having leg cramps and all over muscle cramps. The MG symptoms are also causing my muscles to twitch. But I know to rest, take my meds on time and if I feel that the symptoms are getting worse to go to the ER.

It’s funny, it’s either doctors don’t know about Myasthenia Gravis or they overreact.  Even though this ordeal was annoying, I had to laugh about it. I’m thinking positively that now that I know what’s wrong I’ll be feeling better soon.

It’s getting down to the wire, just 14 more days until Christmas. Just 5 more days until my daughter’s birthday. Just 17 more days until my wedding anniversary. Just 19 more days until my daughter arrives here from Kansas. I’m just tired writing all that!

My Christmas wish is a vacation after Christmas. If I could wave a magic wand, I’d go for a trip to Branson. If I go then we can keep our promise (hopefully, if Mother Nature agrees) to show my youngest daughter snow. We’d have more of a chance of that happening if we chose to stay at the Cabins at Grand Mountain.

If my wishes were to keep on coming, I’d go with a package that includes our accommodations, some meals, show tickets and even a shopping spree. After all what’s a vacation without going to a mall? This is a family friendly area so the shows would be just perfect for us to take our daughter. I’d love to see the Amazing Pets show and the Acrobats of China. My husband would like the Dixie Stampede and the Happy Trails Museum. And I know our daughter would pick the Silver Dollar theme park. While my dd and I go shopping, my dear could play golf.

It sounds like I have all this planned in my head. Now to see if I can make my wishes come true. Anyone have a magic lamp I can borrow?