I have to face facts. As much as I’d rather hide my head in the sand about this I have to accept that I am gaining too much weight. I haven’t weighed myself but I can tell because my clothes are getting too tight and I can see that bulge around my tummy.

Feeling very selfish because I have so many restrictions from being chronically ill, I want to have something in life that I can enjoy with no strings attached and it’s been food. Wrong, I know but I’ve been using food to make me happy. I love eating. When I was young, I was very thin and could eat anything and not gain weight. So I got used to that.

When I was young and was upset or anxious, I couldn’t eat. Now I eat more. I’m becoming embarrassed by my looks and need to make some major changes. I don’t wear anything that is too tight-fitting because it shows my stomach. I can’t remember the last time I wore sexy lingerie, well because.

This is the time for New Year’s Resolutions. Tons of people say they want to lose weight but for me, I have not only my self-esteem at stake I have my health at stake too. This should be the incentive I need to get on the right track of eating healthy again and doing the kind of exercise that I am able.